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heroesandart1
  • Dec 20, 2017
  • 1 min

Clearfield High School Fundraising Rally

If one of the main points of your speech is adaptability you'd better be adaptable. I was invited by Safe Harbor Crisis Center and Clearfield High School to speak at their Falcons are Fabulous fundraising rally this morning. I am in awe of how much these students were able to raise for Safe Harbor (almost $50,000) and the sacrifices some of the students made today. It was a spirited event! Attached you will find a partial (almost complete) video of my condensed speech. I prep

heroesandart1
  • Apr 20, 2017
  • 2 min

Who am I?

Becoming the Hero, Written Series Once a month I do an art workshop at the local domestic and sexual violence crisis center. It is the crisis center that helped me as I decided to leave my abusive marriage. I am incredibly fortunate to be able to return as a survivor and share empathy, understanding, and some skills that help me navigate life after abuse. I take some of my pieces and share my process of healing through art; inviting the workshop members to find the tools that

heroesandart1
  • Feb 12, 2017
  • 1 min

Letter to the First Presidency

Becoming the Hero, Written Series* In which I find the voice of pain that yearned to be listened to, and plead with the leaders of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints to enact changes that will protect victims of violence and prevent instances of violence in the future. *Please note that this was an incredibly emotional letter to write. I had to reopen many wounds and as such, missed a lot of minor grammatical and spelling errors. I read through it multiple times

heroesandart1
  • Dec 31, 2016
  • 8 min

Do you know?

Becoming the Hero, Written Series Do you know what it's like not to own your own body? To have family members and a family friend violate your body before you had even an inkling of what sex was? To have urges and desires brought forth that adults tried to drown in shame without ever understanding why you were bad? To have young boys use your body to explore their own budding masculinity and have it terrify you? To be tackled, kissed, groped, chased, and then quickly discarde

heroesandart1
  • Dec 9, 2016
  • 4 min

Becoming the Hero

Becoming the Hero, Written Series I remember my doodles from childhood and wish beyond almost anything that I still had some of them. My art wasn't nurtured and I ended up ashamed of it. For several decades I longed to try again yet lacked the courage. Thankfully, that changed. While my visual art is where I am most raw, I cannot always live in that space. If you know me, you know I was also born with the gift of gab. I'm not shy with my opinions or ideas. My thirst for knowl

heroesandart1
  • Jul 4, 2016
  • 1 min

Freedom

Poetry is not my forte. However, while trying to heal and process my experiences, sometimes poem like strings of words are what comes out. They're not eloquent. They're not pretty. They are real. This spoken piece was written a couple years ago while on vacation in California. I got in the car with my cousin to drive to the airport and it was screaming in my head. I asked if she minded if I used my phone's voice recorder to take down what was trying to tear my brain apart. I

heroesandart1
  • Jun 9, 2016
  • 11 min

Aftermath

My friend says my paintings scare her. My response: "How do you think they make me feel? I live with this." *TRIGGER WARNING. Sexual Assault, Rape, Domestic Violence, PTSD. ** I've deleted and rewritten this post several times. In my head and physically. There really are no words to eloquently express how I'm feeling and what I'm thinking. A string of expletives, while closer, would still be lacking. Hence, the paintings. Even they aren't enough. I've seen many depictions of

heroesandart1
  • Jun 2, 2016
  • 6 min

Healing

There's a line from the movie Shrek that has stuck with me from my first viewing. Probably because everyone quoted it over and over. "Layers. Onions have layers. Ogres have layers... You get it? We both have layers." I agree with Shrek's self observation, and Donkey's reaction: "You know, not everybody likes onions." While I have never enjoyed thinking of myself as an onion, that was an eye opener for me. Humans are not one dimensional. We have this weird desire to classify e

heroesandart1
  • May 16, 2016
  • 6 min

Searching the Expanse

"If you have been brutally broken, but still have the courage to be gentle with others then you deserve a love deeper than the ocean itself." Nikita Gill I spent at least a solid year alone on the shore before even touching my toe to the water. Waded in but kept close enough to the shore that my feet still touched the ground and I could escape at a moment's notice. Playing in the waves and learning their ebb and flow. My head going under only when I chose for it to do so. Wat

heroesandart1
  • Apr 8, 2016
  • 4 min

Raw

"You need to grow thicker skin." Oh, the amount of times I've heard that. It's just about the most insensitive, yet necessary, advice out there. I don't take issue with the message, at least not the way I've come to incorporate it in my life. It's vital to survival in this world. The delivery is usually done harshly and without validating what the other person is going through emotionally. Asking someone to deny or hide what they are experiencing can be harmful and demoralizi